Day 45! Chico's, Purchased Breasts & 14 year old boys.

Chico’s, purchased breast and 14 year old boys.
Day 45.

Hello again!!
Let’s see what are we at. Day 45. I will double check that.
I need to write more, don’t I?
Thanks for the comments it inspires me to write.
I have been doing so much more creative work having given up television but will come back to my blog.
Blogs are creative too!!

Ok so here is something I have observed recently.
I was on a mini-vacation up in Carmel, CA. I know i was on a mini-vacation last month but this is the extent of my vacation this year. I am done vacationing.
I turned to my guy whilst in Carmel and said “Will our generation, Generation X, ever look like these unhealthy chico wearing people? Men in shorts with socks pulled up to their knees? Women who have given up and now look like large men.”
Chico outfits? What is up with Chico?
I am sorry but I seriously do not get the Chico look. What is that look? I can’t imagine a guy liking that look. Shouldn't’ we dress for men to an extent? Shouldnt' we wnat to look like beautiful women? The fun part of being a girl is being able to wear skirts dress up and have fun with it." I know that sounds totally backwards and so not women’s lib and blah blah blah but what is wrong with looking like a girl with a figure?
What’s wrong with looking attractive? Where did all that go? In Italy where I have lived men totally stare and make comments and its great. it doesn’t mean we are less than human because we look good, it doesn’t mean we are not intelligent, it just means men find us attractive, so what? I don't get what's wrong with that. I could care less if they know I am intelligent becuase the people that I care about know that I am intelligent. Besides I have never thought I a good looking guy was intelligent I am just looking and appreciating. If he can recite Dante great, more power to him. Anyway...
Something is seriously jacked up with the way women are No. 1 perceived on television and No. 2 look like in real life. Its kinda sad and it makes me feel sad. Do women sit around and watch TV now and think “That’s impossible to achieve so I will just give up and wear a colorful looking tent like outfit from Chico.s” Of course its impossible to achieve because we are not 16 year old boys. Who the hell wants to look like a 14 year old boy?
on the other hand it does take work to look nice and present ourselves in a nice way.. When did everyone turn into walking sofa's and get lazy?
Back the skinny of things....

Here is my hollywood theory. Hollywood is run by gay men who think boy’s bodies look good and somehow that way of thinking parlayed into women looking like 14 year old boys on tv. Now look, I am not suggesting that gay men are pedophiles I have plenty of gay friends who I adore but let’s face it grown heterosexual's would take a 14 year old girl if they could so why not a 14 year old boy. No, I don’t mean everyone. 14 is a freshman in high school and I am only talking about that thin vulnerable framed body.
C’mon? No wonder I was depressed watching television I grew up on 90210 when girls had breasts because they ate and didn’t have to purchase them and they wore normal clothes and looked curvy like women. I didn’t thik about how I looked in a sexy manner. I just dressed cute, cute skirts, normal sweaters. Cute and classy. What happened to cute and classy? It still exists in France, why not here? Where are we going as a nation? To see jackass the movie with our guts growing over our ever shrinking jeans?
Back to The flip side. TOOO skinnnny.
Until recently I didn’t even think about the fact that our rib cages go all the way up to our shoulders because I never saw ribs where breasts should be. Also I had no idea that a woman’s calves could actually remain the same size to her hips. Usually calves turn into thighs.

You can make the argument that Audrey Hepburn was small. Guess what Audrey Hepburn was malnourished during the war and she was also a trained ballerina. Regarding Calista Flockhart I have met her, stood right next to her and believe it or not she looks totally normal for her frame I saw nothing wrong with her, she just happens to be tall, probably 5’8 and willowy not sickly skinny. She is just one of those women who are naturally thin. What is my point? My point is this. Generation X! Dress like beautiful women. Marilyn Monro and AVa Gardner, they ate. If you are bigger than you wish, screw it don’t ever think you will look like the mom’s from the OC because why would you want to look like a boy in jeans? If you are super skinny and you are eating then fine that is your frame. Think about the effects telvision is having on your body image. Don't give up feeling good about yourselves because you think you can not feel good until you look like a lollipop. Feel and look good about yourself now. Either stop comparing yourself to these twiglets on tv or throw out your telvision.

Please take care of yourselves, try not to get to the point where you have to wear bad clothes to cover up bad eating let’s take Generation X into the future without going to chico’s.

MONTH GONE & POP TANGENT!!!

OKAY its been more than a month!! I have completely survived!!
In fact I have come to face the fact that there is a pretty good chance I will never watch television again!! Do I miss it? No!!
In fact my cravings have gone away. Only rarely will it hit me that I am missing a program. I do get nostalgic for the fall lineup that is coming. Now with the dawn of TV show iTunes and dvd series I am home free.
Although I think that watching a tv show on iTunes would be considered cheating so I haven’t yet, What’s odd is that I haven't watched a lot of films either. Its hard for me to sit still. I always want to do something.

I listen to a ton more music and have been buying more via iTUnes than I ever have. I decided to start reading Proust, which is insane I know but we are only doing 20 pages a week. That’s enough Proust.
I still haven’t been practicing as much as I should. Its tough to practice at 30 and now I know why the great diva’s don’t bother with coaching anymore. Although the music sounds like a jazzy mess instead of crisp Mozart but oh well. Doubtful is Mozart would give a crap. In fact if Mozart were alive he’d probably be working with Justin Timberlake.
That’s not a bad thing in my book I think he is creative. Well, as creative as one can be and still be popular. Too creative doesn’t jive. people are complaining about his CD but its the most creative pop Cd out there that sticks to the mainstream conscious. Who else? I don’t hear DePeche Mode or Imogene Heap on the Radio. Doubt I will hear much Tori Amos or STing anymore. ColdPlay is just a flavor of the month.
Please do not get me started on the pop girls. Christina A. has an incredible instrument. No offense to her, she is talented, I just don’t really listen to that stuff, it sounds overproduced. Now, justin’s sounds overproduced but it sounds like they meant it that way. Christina’s sounds like they ran it through a bunch of stuff. But, the girl can sing so I should pick someone else to rag on. Beyonce she can not sing. Its really not that she can’t sing its the sound of her voice, blah, its almost like J-Lo’s. No tone!! christina has depth, well she is a real singer, she could sing the alphabet and people would listen. These other chick singers SUCK!!! no tone. Everything sounds forced. Who else? Well, at least Britney Spears hides herself behind a ton of vocalists who can sing. There is some new girl now. OMG I can’t stand her voice its the most whiney voice I have ever heard. I know she does that song SOS. But she does some other song and I want to cry when I hear it. I wished she had hidden behind a choir.
But, I am sure she is a lovely girl and that is simply my opinion.
Besides the sad thing is someone is paying someone to get people on the radio why do you think you hear the same damn song over and over and over again.
Ok tangent. Perhaps I should write more, everyday.
I’ll try again tomorrow. I got away from the writing.
Besides I could definitely write about some interesting topics like “Why do Lesbians always look like they are on a hike but they are in the middle of NYC? That’s one I will never understand.

DAY 27!? Blog neglect and happiness is here to stay!!

DAY 27!!

So it’s been 3 weeks now!! I have been neglecting my blog a bit because I actually got busier with life. Been studying more, signed up for a french class. Take my dog for more walks. Listen to music more. Listen to talk radio. It feels like I took a happy pill.

3 weeks almost 4!! Sometimes I have pains of missing it. I’ll be walking around the house and I’ll realize right at this moment I’d be watching TV instead of organizing my books and finding new music on iTUnes or writing my friends in Europe or sending them cards. Gee, don’t think I lost anything by giving up on television. in fact I seriously can not believe how much happier I am! How this little sad cloud has lifted. I am more apt to be social.
I accepted an invitation Saturday night to go to a family’s bbq alone cause my man is out of town. I emailed a mutual friend and said that I’d be more than happy to have sushi with him sans guy, which is a first for me.
Friend is gay so don’t start thinking something.
Instead of emailing my mom yesterday I called her and told her about the BBQ. I look forward to the day!!

In my quest I have asked other people about TV and here how that has been going. Last week we went to dinner with friends and I told them of our sans TV life. The one friend went on and on about how we are going to have absolutely nothing to talk about! Huh?
We talked the entire night about life, politics and food and life!
When you watch television you are basically watching someone else work. They are making money off of you sitting there gaining weight.
I was always aware of that. “I am watching people work, I am not working but they are.” What I mean by working is anything but watching TV cause everything else takes work. In fact I read an article in some fitness girl magazine and it said that there’s death, sleep and then watching television in the burning of calories. It went on to say being stuck in traffic or scratching your butt burns more calories!

Back to my people. Mutual friends of ours have 2 children now and have recently moved from Chicago to LA and live in a tiny apartment with an 8 month old and a 2 year old. We found out that 4 months ago they gave up television! Huh? They have 2 children in a small apartment. Apparently their kids work on puzzles or draw. The parents watch them think of things to do instead of watching TV.
AT the BBQ Saturday night I told the Dr. (host of the party) my no watching television and he said “Great, its pointless and makes you less creative.”
I was speaking with his sons over dinner about it, they are my age. The older one, perhaps 27 said television sucks that its draining and serves no point. The younger 23 who is an under grad said he noticed the he would read more and study more and hang out with friends more when he was without a television.” That’s when I said the one year in college when I didn’t have a tele is the year I got straight A’s.

All I know is this. I am calmer, not as anxious to finish work, don’t care what terrorist level we are at, (government probably changes that daily anyway) don’t care what food will give me cancer next. I am sitting in my living room, the television is gone, I have elle fitzergerald on and my puppy is sitting next to me.
I am emailing my friends, putting some more books away that we have put in the living room when we got rid of the tv and I will head to the store. I haven’t shopped for food since I sprained my ankle. Am running quite low on all things pasta and protein. This afternoon I will go sit at my coffee shop, write my Great Aunt a letter and come home to practice.
Put away more books. Probably call my father. Basically live life, instead of watching it...