Nairland, Nairland not a hair in sight land.

Aside from the fact that it is Christmastime/New Years and I should be writing about candy canes, legos and stomach pains from all the food I think I need to address something that also gave me stomach pains this past holiday season. The culprit of my pains would be Miss Spears bald headed-ness peaking out beneath what could only be deemed a long shirt.

I was messing around on MySpace when a video popped up of some guy singing about the past year’s events. When the man got to “And we saw Britney Spears Vagina” I had to take a double take. Huh? Did she pose for Playboy? Huh? Being without television and having friends now who really do not watch television I have been out of the loop and gratefully so. VERY GRATEFULLY SO! Yet, curiosity got the better of me and I googled the words. “Britney Spears Vagina.” Whelp, I definitely got an eyeful of what that myspace dude wa singing about. There it was in full bloom in all its rashness. C’mon that's a rash! Grow some hair for God’s sake you are a grown woman!!! I sure hope she tips her waxer big time cause that woman left nothing to the imagination. Unless Miss Spears is using Nair, in which case a rash would surely develop.

What the hell is wrong with YOU! I felt sorry for her and yes now I kinda want to cry for her. She must be amazingly screwed up beyond anything I have ever seen in life. This is way beyond any kind of manic depression (bipolar) or borderline disorder this is just plain NUTS! In all honesty she is showing the worst kind of self esteem problem that could ever be witnessed. Problem is we have witnessed “it” as well as many teenage girls who haven’t developed enough self respect to realize that showing your vagina to the world is amazingly slutty and sad, not cool, just plain sad. There are gonna be many a razor and nair mishaps out there.

Responsibility? Many of these stars say they are not a role model and not to look up to them. What happened to your own Moral code? What happened to ethics?
You ARE responsible! You as a human being must have ethics.
Time and time again I have said we are obviously evolved from animals. Look how long it is taking to evolve! It seems we are going backwards in society not forwards. It doesn’t even seem like we should use the word society.

Imagine if our towns had bike trails along every road. Imagine if there were walkways over busy streets and all streets were lined with trees. Imagine if television was used to educate. Imagine if it was a happy place that reported happy news. What if television also reported sad news but with a solution. What if television promoted healthy food. What if television talked about peoples problems without judgment. What if there was respect for one another? What if there was tolerance. What if we learned about all faiths, all races & all backgrounds. What if television taught empathy.
I am not sure that anyone in the Hollywood party crowd even knows what empathy means. What if they learned the definition of empathy through television?

I would like to leave you with a poem that I came across, the author is unknown...


To live a successful life
Does not require
Money, fame, power, prestige
Or status symbols...
It's more a matter of
Being true to your own beliefs and principles,
Doing your best,
Even in the smallest of things,
And never taking for granted
The simple joys in life--
Such as laughter, a perfect day,
Or a loyal friend.

For all the money in the world
Can't buy self-esteem, character,
Contentment, love or happiness--
And these are the very things
That make life
Worth living.

Family Judgment:Hell for the holidays.

Since its the holiday season I thought I would address an issue that all of us have encountered over the last 4 weeks. FAMILY!

What’s up with family? Why all the issues? Why is it that our family can treat us like crap and then expect us to stick around. They seem to think it will never effect the relationship and we will never ever go away because we are “family”. We put up with crap that we wouldn’t let anyone other than family get away with. Guess what?! Not me, I am putting my foot down. I am finally tired of all the family drama. Why should children treat their parents with respect if we in return to do not receive it. I deserve respect and not to be treated like a doormat that my family wipes their issues on.

I caught the tale end of a question and answer session with a Doc/psych radio show on XM yesterday. No, not television, radio. (she writes with a smile) Anyway, someone had called in wondering why their children didn’t come around to visit anymore. The Doc said “Normally we would blame the children but perhaps its something you are doing wrong. Are you interested in their lives? Do you ask the right questions? Do you judge?”

In my family and my man’s family judging is a way of life. If you don’t do it their way tis’ the wrong way. What's wrong with you!? My family doesn’t have a clue as to what I do in my life. They take no real interest.
Perhaps because I am not performing like I used to so there is nothing to brag about. Perhaps its because I have had some work published and my mother, who has written wonderful stories, just sits in front of “LifetIme, television for women” all day and does nothing. I have encouraged her countless times to persue writing. Yet, does anyone encourage me? No. My father, the eternal self proclaimed pessimist always seeks to destroy any idea I have. Anything that brings about a negative taste in his mouth a morbid curiosity will arise. If I choose not do go through with something I get the inevitable “Why NoooOoooT?” When I give an answer that is satisfactory to either my mother or my father I get no response. No feedback. Nothing. Not a “good for you.” Not a “sounds like a plan.” Nothing. No response. Dead silence. Why did they want to know in the first place? Why? to satisfy their own curiosity in my life and once that is quenched it’s onto the next issue for them. Issue for them, not me. I get nothing. No response, dead silence. nothing.

My man’s family hurts my heart just as much. Christmas morning I decide to say hi to my Man’s father. Well its Christmas right? This is what I got.
“Oh your ankle hurts? Be prepared you will probably never walk right again. How are you? -Good I replied.-”Good?! Well you have your guy with you. That’s something!!”
He probably wanted to say. “You have my son with you”
We are 3,000 miles from them and my guy had to work Christmas Eve so there was no traveling “home for the holidays” this year.

Oh and in the “shooting down” department. I told my guy’s father about an idea I had regarding a recording that I was doing. We were on the way to the airport, just him and me. Whelp. He shot the idea down. If he had had a missile launcher I wouldn’t be here.
My heart sank. Tears welled up. I was a failure. I held my chin up not letting him know that I was hurt. I dropped him off & I went to a coffee shop crying. Crying to my guy. I saw an expensive pair of pajamas in the window of a store. I bought ass-expensive pj’s that I couldn’t truly afford. They felt soo soft and I was so dizzy. I went home.

I am older now. I am finally tired of hearing the same stories, putting up with the same family drama. I am changing and they are not. Do I respect them? I would if they respected me.
I told my mother that I was only going to be answering emails once a week because I need to concentrate and having emails constantly interrupting me tends to make me lose my train of thought. I am getting bogged down with questions from my mother that could be answered by gee my father, my little brother or the instructions. For instance. “Does Bose Ipod system work with nano?” Look on the box!!! Ask my father!!!!!
Also, I never know when a negative comment is lurking in my mailbox and the negative comments take me down for hours.

As part of New Years and my new found freedom of non-television watching I used this as an excuse to only email once a week. Instead of receiving a response that says. Great, sounds like you are on a role. I get this response. “Gheesh, next you will be giving up the phone........guess if someone wants to tell you something, it will have to wait............a week.”

Um, there is a phone. The phone is sitting next to me. The thing is she won’t pick up the phone to see if the Bose system works with a Nano.
She probably already knows the answer. & its not important. She uses these emails to have a connection with me. Any connection. Has she ever thought about asking how my day was going? No. Has she ever written Have a good week. I s’pose television gets more attention than I do.
My Mother has Borderline personality disorder so perhaps I am not being fair. Yet, what are the others excuses?

DO I sound mean about my parental units? The thing is I know I am gossiped about by my own family and I am not getting any support from my parents. One could say but “they are your parents” True. But, I didn’t ask to be brought into this world and parents receive a lot from their children and should give much in return.

I will leave you with this poem that was read by Audrey Hepburn to her children.
Time-Tested Beauty Tips
For attractive lips, speak words of kindness. 
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people. 
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry. 
For beautiful hair, let a child run his fingers through it once a day. 
For poise, walk with the knowledge you'll never walk alone ... 

People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived,
reclaimed and redeemed and redeemed and redeemed. Never throw out anybody. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you'll find one at the end of your arm. As you grow older you will discover that you have two hands. One for helping yourself, the other for helping others.

Sam Levenson

P.S. Don’t buy expensive pj’s they are not worth it. Mine were poorly made. Victoria’s Secrets pj’s are great. By the way, the project that I brought up to the Dad that he shot down. The project worked.

May everyone find peace with their families and within themselves in this new year.

Answer/Girl/Star/Gossip/Santa

Whelp its 2007 and I have been tv free since August 13th!
That’s almost 21 weeks and I am loving it!!
Honestly, I can not wait for the day that I will no longer recognize the “stars” that are mentioned on the radio.
Speaking of radio, today I decided to listen to E on xm and caught E news and then I listened to part of that horrible high school gossipy show
Something about Ten, oh The Daily Ten.
Then I popped over to iTunes where you can catch shows like
Answer Bitch (classy)
Party Girl (sad)
and E red carpet stuff.
There was more from people magazine but my head started to spin.
Then I popped over to some crappy website that was filled with more and more “star” gossip to see what the latest news was. Here is a list of what I have been missing. Interestingly enough its the same people that I left behind in August.

1. Spears. Her vagina (have a separate blog on that class act) Spears’ partying and Spears’ divorcing.
Having this knowledge helps me in my life how?

2. Paris Hilton. Seriously join a charity and get a really good psychiatrist. First get the psychiatrist and then seek out charity work. Sad. Sad. When Southpark does an episode where they repeatedly sing Paris Hilton is a whore that is a signal to change your ways.

3. Linsday Lohan. hospital once again. Yawn.

4. Rosie O’Donald and Donald TRump acting like the civilized adults that they are. Sad. What are we teaching our children? SOmeone should have bowed out and said nothing. That one person would have garnered respect, some respect now both are disappointing. Although, I am scared to write anything about either for fear that a masked man will appear at my door with a BB gun and a mud pie to shove in my mouth. Children.

5. JT, Diaz and women. Same, Same and same.

6. Jessica SImpson and John Mayer. Why John? Why?
Oddly his songs are introspective and yet he runs around acting like a little boy. Guess he is following in Sting’s footsteps. (Sting is opening a stripclub) Great idea Sting! I am sure your wife and children will be proud.
Perhaps your daughter will dance there when she grows up.

7. Oprah. True a lot of Oprah but I think people need to leave her alone now, she built a school. She could be hanging out doing nothing.

8. TomKat. Apparently the Kat is shopping. ooooo

9. Beyonce again

10. Pit, Jolie, Aniston etc. Bradgenlina, Vaughniston.

That’s enough gossip for the moment.
I don’t miss any of it. I am cured. I think the shows are getting meaner and meaner and we as a society are growing children that are going to be disrespectful non-reading little assholes if you ask me.

Shows like Answer Bitch and Party Girl? What is that?
What’s up with these teenage magazines too?
Elle for girls etc. Crap.
Its awful. Oral sex is in it. When I was in high school I didn’t read about oral sex.
Just watch the SouthPark episode about Miss Hilton and you will see the lovely effects these “stars” are having on society. If you do not believe me then go to any small town in the midwest and look around, there are 15 year old prostitutes everywhere.


I stopped believing in Santa Claus when my mother took me to see him in a department store, and he asked for my autograph.
Shirley Temple.

“If you come to fame not understanding who you are, it will define who you are.”
Oprah

Happy New Year 2007!!!

Happy New Year 2007!!

What have I been up to. I can not believe its been this long since I have written a blog. I have been thinking about blogs and have started some but.... Perhaps Christmas took over. Presents. Food. Family.
I can tell you that I have not missed television, not once. Well perhaps once when I pined for the sounds of ‘It’s a wonderful Life” floating in the background as I wrapped presents. Instead I listened to a ton of music. A lot of music.
I got out more Even today I sat outside at a coffee place and watched birds fly around.
My senses are heightened. I listen more. I listen to music more. I am more eager to seek out friends. I go on walks everyday. I have lost five pounds, perhaps more. I go to yoga now.
I am organizing my office more and more. I laugh more. I am constantly laughing. I laugh at a funny line in a book, something I have never done. I am happier. My man and I are more in love. We sit at the dinner table together every night and talk about our day. We laugh. I cook more. I plan meals more and yet I eat less.
I am not on the internet as much. I play with my dog more.
I am thrilled. I am not as sad. I used to get sad in the mornings after watching the news.
Now, I read the news and choose what I want to read.
I received a letter from a friend recently that said we live in a sad world. At that moment, the moment that I was reading that letter I thought to myself what’s so sad. I don’t think anything is sad. Sure people will always be in need and we have war but people are helping people and there is always hope of a better tomorrow. You see, I do not watch the news I have created my own way of receiving the news and my own way of thinking about the world. Instead of feeling helpless like the world will end tomorrow or I will die from eating too many eggs or too much broccoli I am hopeful. I am more tolerant of annoying people that I see on my outings. I say hi to strangers with a smile. Today someone asked if they could come over and pet my dog. He then proceeded to tell me that he had lost his dog recently and how sad he was. We talked. I said that I knew it was hard. The old me would have hid under my headphones & the new me took off my headphones.
I am creating my own world to live in. Television has lost its power over me.
Happy New Year and may you find peace and fulfillment in 2007!